i am so small.
Job 38 – 42 – I am so small.
I don’t know that I’ve read any other place in scripture where God speaks more about who He is and what He can do than the final five chapters of Job when God speaks to Job. In approaching this passage as a reminder of the sheer and utter power of God, I am left to just sit in awe and think, “You are so big and I am so small.”
I’m at a resort in Florida for a conference. It’s truly so peaceful, restful, and beautiful. As I sat and just continued to think about what God can do and how powerful he is, a person’s voice in the distance broke into my thoughts. It was a man’s voice yelling from the beach and not clear enough to truly interpret what was causing the yelling. My mind just began to wander. It started creating scenarios of why he could be yelling and visualizing things that could be taking place. In a split second, I was transported from a mind that was meditating on the awesomeness of who God is to a litany of creative thoughts and wild imagination in my mind that drew all my attention and focus away from meditating on the one who could do, speak, think all the things mentioned (and more!) in Job, chapters 38-42.
Just as those thoughts had fully infiltrated my mind, a little gnat flew right by my face. Yes. A gnat. One of the smallest of God’s creatures annoyed me for a split second and I swatted at it immediately. The moment I did, God spoke to me, “I can also draw your attention back to me with just a gnat because I want to show you who I am and that I care for you more than every animal and creature I spoke of in this passage.”
Mic drop. I just sat in awe once again, smiled, and laughed a little in a holy fear sort of way. I recognized in that moment God can do all that he spoke of in Job 38-42 and so much more and yet, he STILL comes to me (even through a little gnat) and speaks to me because He loves me and cares for me more than any of the animals he details in those chapters as He spoke to Job those thousands of years ago.
As I typed this out, a cardinal landed on the railing right in front of me, looked at me, chirped a little, and flew away, like another little reminder that all of this is more than true – it is God’s love in the small things that remind me of the big things that I can surrender and lay at His feet because He cares and loves me so much. (Matthew 6:26-27; 1 Peter 5:7)
Write down the cares and things on your mind, recognizing God’s voice saying, “Cast your cares on me.” As you write them down, visualize and say out loud to your Heavenly Father what you are surrendering to Him and realizing how much you CAN trust Him with those cares, anxieties, and worries. He loves you more than you can ever imagine.
